GO SHAWTY!!! IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!
Another year added to my 18 years of life spent on earth… I officially turned 19 a few minutes ago and to celebrate my birthday I decided to treat myself with a glass of vodka mixed with coke and little cherry syrup and to top it off, a cherry. I gulped the whole thing but left the cherry on the glass. The reason behind it is drinking the mixed vodka straight as a representation of accepting and looking forward to what the future holds for me… No slowing down or stopping but just living life to the fullest and living it using all my strengths and capabilities. Another reason for choosing vodka was because it wasn’t all sweet but a mix of sweetness and the taste I can’t really explain but it’s a taste I don’t really like that much so it symbolizes my acceptance for my future may it be good or bad. It can’t be all perfect and smooth sailing for me right. I left the cherry and threw it as far as I could because I was leaving the past behind. It doesn’t mean I’m forgetting where I came from or I don’t want to look back… not at all. It just means that I’m thankful for my past because I have learned priceless experiences and gained unforgettable memories but I want to throw away regrets or thoughts of what if’s and maybe’s. I don’t want to loathe on things I wished I did better at or I wished I did this and that. Past is past and being sorry, feeling bad or thinking about what if’s and maybe’s aren’t going to make things better or turn back time.
While doing this I was playing “Collide” by Howie Day on my PSP. I’ve heard it from my ex boyfriend before, I mean I wasn’t playing it to remind me of him. I was playing it because I liked this line that says – Even the best fall down sometimes, Even the wrong words seem to rhyme, Out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find you and I collide… I’m not pertaining to anybody special or romantically inclined with me but I think it just reminds me of my relationship with people I care about or love such as my family or my faith. No matter what bumps in the road we go thru I know for sure that we will always collide (I see it in a way meaning not crash but we collide to each other making each a better person and adding to the completeness of each other). I know that whatever mistake I make they will still love me and accept me for who I really am, for just simply being me.
I felt real good this afternoon of April 5th because this pastor we know visited here then we gathered in a circle (My Dad, Stepmum, Me, Lola and Larry-the pastor) and we all prayed together and it was a real good prayer initiated by Larry. The type of prayer that really hits you in the heart and is really sincere.
People who read my blog would probably think of my birthday plans… I have no plans meaning I don’t plan to party or arrange one. I’ll go to school early around 7:30 a.m. then rest when I get home. Hopefully get to visit church tomorrow to pray and give thanks then have dinner with my father and stepmum. That’s it! Not the usual thing I would do if I was in the Philippines but it’s about time I spend my birthday with people who really loves me and never really left me, my family and my faith…
I’m still thinking about things I should accomplish this year, what I need to learn, what I should change about me and new things to get busy with but I’ll probably figure things out tomorrow, I mean later, because I still need to review for my exams later…
Things can only get better… That I’m sure of…
While doing this I was playing “Collide” by Howie Day on my PSP. I’ve heard it from my ex boyfriend before, I mean I wasn’t playing it to remind me of him. I was playing it because I liked this line that says – Even the best fall down sometimes, Even the wrong words seem to rhyme, Out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find you and I collide… I’m not pertaining to anybody special or romantically inclined with me but I think it just reminds me of my relationship with people I care about or love such as my family or my faith. No matter what bumps in the road we go thru I know for sure that we will always collide (I see it in a way meaning not crash but we collide to each other making each a better person and adding to the completeness of each other). I know that whatever mistake I make they will still love me and accept me for who I really am, for just simply being me.
I felt real good this afternoon of April 5th because this pastor we know visited here then we gathered in a circle (My Dad, Stepmum, Me, Lola and Larry-the pastor) and we all prayed together and it was a real good prayer initiated by Larry. The type of prayer that really hits you in the heart and is really sincere.
People who read my blog would probably think of my birthday plans… I have no plans meaning I don’t plan to party or arrange one. I’ll go to school early around 7:30 a.m. then rest when I get home. Hopefully get to visit church tomorrow to pray and give thanks then have dinner with my father and stepmum. That’s it! Not the usual thing I would do if I was in the Philippines but it’s about time I spend my birthday with people who really loves me and never really left me, my family and my faith…
I’m still thinking about things I should accomplish this year, what I need to learn, what I should change about me and new things to get busy with but I’ll probably figure things out tomorrow, I mean later, because I still need to review for my exams later…
Things can only get better… That I’m sure of…
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