It surprises me that the last time I wrote on my blog was last week and I didn’t even notice. I’m getting pretty busy with school and I’m not even sure if I can handle the stress that will come my way.
Basically what I do when I’m not in school, I’ll be home studying or taking the time off to nap. I can’t even imagine anymore how I’m going to be able to absorb all the information I read from my books. I knew it wouldn’t be easy but I never thought it would be this hard.

I went on a trip to the beach with my dad, stepmum, uncle and aunt. I didn’t really want to go but I felt like I deserve some rest and peace and I needed a quiet place to read my books while drinking my coffee or tea. I know it’s supposed to be a break or a vacation but I needed to read my books. I’m not even cramming because I still have Friday-Wednesday to study but still I feel like I’m running out of time real fast. I can’t keep up with the pace. It’s like no matter how hard I try to study and read my book over and over again it just doesn’t register in my head. I know what I’m trying to study right now is not what and who I really want to be so it doesn’t really interest me that much but I’m no doing this for myself, I’m doing it for my family because I want them to have a better life. I want to do everything, whatever it takes, to give them a better life.

RANDOM THOUGHTS:

I feel like a dork now reading my books in the café or even carrying them because they’re huge like I had no idea my books would be that thick.

I did enjoy the vacation even though half the time I had to study.

There was this moment yesterday at church where I saw a happy couple sitting down with their kids and I thought to myself, how can one find the right person to be with and spend the rest of your life with? Just a random thought but it scares me in a way.

I feel like I have not much to say but I am busy with a lot of things. It just feels like my words are dry. It’s just hard to explain.