you're beautiful...

Tommy made this day very special for me that no words can depict or explain how I feel. It’s just one of those moments that I’ll never forget. One of those moments that one should always go back to, reminisce and never let go.

I didn’t really care what our status was or is because all I cared about is being happy with each other, content and most of all and having the respect for each other. I think for me I would rather have that (happiness, contentment and respect) than having the status and none of these. He made me feel secure; he makes sure he knew what I was feeling may it be negative or positive; he wraps me around his arms and tells me over and over how much he loves being with me; he made me feel beautiful in ways that he’s not even doing on purpose. I could talk all day long and not run out of reasons why I love being around him, why I feel carefree when I’m with him, why I feel so beautiful because of him, why I feel so smart when we converse. I don’t know but whatever reasons I had before that was trying to pull me back from being with him or even wanting to be with him was just not worth it. I would rather go thru the ups and downs with him. I would rather take the risks again than not know him at all. Those reasons weren’t good enough to stop me from wanting to know him better and good thing is that I didn’t listen to myself because if I did I wouldn’t be here talking or writing about him. I would be alone talking of words that have nothingness in between them.

So my whole point is… we’re together now. I can’t stop smiling. I can’t believe I can’t remove this smile on my face.

It was so funny how he goes like okay May 24, 2006 at around 2:30 a.m. we became “us” and I go like we’re so dorky and he’s so dorky but he’s so cute when he does that.

So in the afternoon I got a call from him saying that he’s passing by my place real quick and I’m like go home and study because I know he has a lot of things to do but then I let him pass by because I missed him so much and when I saw him walking towards me he had these beautiful yellow roses and I was blushing too much that’s why I told him he’s so baduy but like I really felt special just seeing him walk towards me carrying those roses. I even told him in a joke kind of way that yellow roses meant friendship and I go like so you want to be friends and he’s like stop it and there’s a reason why they’re yellow so hold on to your horses and I’m like yeah I believe you then I handed him a letter I made for his birthday as well. I don’t know why I’m just so excited and I just want to see him all day and just stare at him too. I just can’t believe I am this happy. It’s been such a long time…

I really want this to work and I know I’m going to try my best to make it work. He’s too special for me to let go. I know that our meeting has a reason and a purpose and I know that we will influence each other to be a better person and help influence people around us as well.

I am not scared of what the future holds for us because I know we will get thru the ups and downs… together. Together we will make it thru.

I thank God for leading my way to Tommy. I thank God for sharing with me such a beautiful person, his child Tommy. I thank God for Tommy’s life and for mine as well and I know that we will use the life that we were blessed with to help others and offer everything to God… I thank God for this happiness I’m feeling right now because I don’t even think I deserve it. He's so good to me that he lead me to Tommy's path and until now he watches over me and Tommy too…