my life or something like it...

I’m caught up with thoughts if not much has been happening with my life or if I come to think of it there’s quite a lot and I still don’t know what to choose. I think this week I’ve had like one of the hardest exams I have ever taken in my whole life and that is the circulatory system (I think…It’s the system that has something to do with the heart and it pumping the blood) and respiratory system (which was not so bad). I think I just had a hard time with how the heart works because it just confused me big time! When I got my test paper I was just like SH*T I don’t remember anything not even what capillaries, veins or all the blood vessels. I just literally went BLANK! I don’t know if I should address it as a brain blackout or mental block because I don’t really believe that there’s such a thing as getting mental blocked.
I still passed though I got the lowest score I have ever gotten on my test in my current school which is 80%. Now I’m like thinking I should never go down 80%. I mean I just think I’m cutting myself some slack because I have been passing and I’m just being too comfortable and easy going and I shouldn’t really be acting that way that’s why I get nervous because deep inside me I know I’m not that ready to take my test.

I learned this quote from my teacher this week though and it meant a lot to me--- “to thyself be true”, It’s by Shakespeare and it just struck me I haven’t really been true to myself (that’s my opinion). I don’t want to elaborate because I don’t think I’m that ready to talk about it, to myself or to other people.

Anyways one of the important event that has transpired this week was me being able to talk to Teban… I know my closest of friends would react to this but yeah it was important to me being able to talk to him and just knowing he’s fine and doing well. It made me in a way feel happy because I’m happy for someone else, feel at peace knowing he’s doing good and be happy for myself because I am happy for him and because he’s not mad at me (well I think he’s not) and because I’m not holding any grudges against him or the person he’s with right now. So I’m just really happy.

I was also able to talk to Eya, Dana’s girlfriend, even though we didn’t really that long because it was just so hard to like contact both of them so I called Tebs instead. I was able to say hi and let them know I miss them. So that made my day as well.

Back to my topic of interest last week regarding meeting somebody from the internet, I liked how Erin, my classmate, said that it’s in a way not that good of an idea because you make up an idea in your head of the other person but get disappointed if it doesn’t turn out the way you were expecting it to be. Both of us didn’t have anything against it but still we had doubts about the whole idea.

I just wish one could just see straight into the person what his or her intentions are or if the person is real or not but yeah one couldn’t really do so. I just wish though…

I’ll just leave with a quote that would apply to partly what I felt when I talked to Teban… “The course of true love never did run smooth”…