Intricacies…

Here I am making my thoughts so complex again… It has been a long time since I have deeply loved another person. I am not saying I am right now but I’d probably would sooner or later. How did it become complex to me? It’s because I have been thinking about he same person all day long. I have been missing that person all day long. I have been wanting to see and talk to that person all day long. What is so complicated about that? That is not what I want. I don’t want to get attached because I don’t want to get hurt. I know that if I let myself fall in love again… The same thing would just happen. Oh I’m such a pessimist, and I have been saying that all day long. I’m like what if there’s something behind the idea of going out with me? What if he wants to just play around? What if… My never ending what if’s…

I guess I’m just really frightened… I guess it’s because I’m tired of getting hurt and losing the people I love most…