a week of ups and downs...

This week has been a mix of fun and emotional breakdowns for me and I am still grounded though and I have one week to go….

My stepmum explained to me why my dad reacted in a bad way when I got home and she said like my dad would let me go anytime just that I didn’t tell him I was going home late that’s why it made him real furious… I mean I understand, I just told her that I’m not justifying what I did because I know I was wrong just that I didn’t like the way he talked to me and how he made me feel like he’s pushing me away. On a good note she said my dad and my family liked Tommy which was good and it cheered me up.

I think whatever I have with Tommy is getting deeper but then I am in a way scared of these kind of feelings. I don’t know… I’ll let time lay it out in front me so I can figure things out. It was sweet of him because he gave me a cd of Goapele after we watched the movie. I don’t know why I find myself missing him more and more as each day passes me by…

Anyways this week I watched Silent Hill with my family and Tommy and it was the worst movie I have watched this year. The worst thing about it was I lost my cell phone it the theatre and I love that phone because I have taken so many pictures from that phone right before I left the Philippines. I don’t really want to think about it anymore because when I lose something I just want to think to myself that I am going to get something better but then I can’t take the feeling away because it has a sentimental value you know.

I also cut my hair too short and I don’t want to think about it too…

I really don’t have much to say because I have to prepare for my finals and I’m getting real anxious and nervous about it. I also got into this argument with my instructor and my Filipino classmates. I don’t want to say I hate them… What I hate about them is how they act…

Ay caramba I need to do some studying…