me and my speeding ticket... :-(

I believe that your whole mood in the morning right when you wake up affects your whole day and I think I just had one of my worst… Start it off with waking up pretty late for school then getting a speeding ticket on the way to the hospital (for school). It just ruined my whole day because I just can’t stop thinking of a way to tell my dad and to figure out how to pay for the ticket if I don’t tell him. So I just have this headache about the whole thing that transpired today. I cannot count anymore how many times I said the word “pissed” today like I just say “I’m so pissed!” over and over and over again.

Anyways looking onto the bright side at least I have learned my lesson that one should follow the rules whether someone is looking after you or not.

I am still tired from school as usual. I think it’s really because I still haven’t accepted it but then for me the greatest gift I get from nursing is getting complements from your patient. I remember yesterday how two patients of mine made my day because they told me that I was caring and very gentle and that I’m not like the other nurses that just do their job and not even have the compassion. At least I get the fulfillment from helping them and making them feel better and now I have to care for somebody more than myself and think about them and how they feel before me. Though I won’t be able to teach special children I can still make other people feel special just by taking care of them. It really feels fulfilling… Feels very good and overwhelming.

I think I will figure things out in time… Life is a gift from God and it’s a huge humungous puzzle that we figure out as we age and we understand more of it and we see that it isn’t that complex at all. I may stumble and fall sometimes but it’s all a part of living.

My lesson for the day is Newton’s third law stating that in every action there is an equal reaction…